Arriving somewhere, not here...

Arriving somewhere, not here...

Back when the Italians were the ones emigrating abroad, men used to leave their families behind, only to see them years — if not decades — later. Nowadays, it’s mostly women who bid farewell to their native countries to support their families. They move to Italy and work as housemaids or caregivers, and 75% of them leave their children at home.

It is a wound that cuts deep and sometimes leads to tragic outcomes: as shown by humanitarian associations, about forty Romanian children committed suicide since 2008 because of their mothers’ absence.

This painful experience doesn't only affect the children left behind but also the women forced to abandon their countries to find a job. Such condition has been connected to what the psychologists call “the Italian Syndrome”, which is a severe form of depression increasingly more common among both the immigrants working as caregivers in our country and their children. Andrei is a 10 year-old boy and just a while ago he was living the cheerful life that every child deserves to live. With the occurrence of the economic crisis his father got fired and his mum moved to Italy to find a job. Over the months, the absence of his mother as well as his father’s alcohol abuse had become a tough burden to bear. The presence of his relatives and the strong affection to his motherland cannot fill the emptiness inside him. After a long and painful lawsuit between his parents, Andrei finally catches up with his mother in Italy but what seems to be a happy ending is actually the beginning of a new life where everything looks different and where expectations turn into delusions. Andrei deeply misses his old habits and finds it difficult to integrate into the new society. This generates a strong discomfort that gets even worse because of the arduous relationship between the boy and his mother’s new partner. Andrei shuts himself out, avoids people and isolates himself into a mental and physical cage. He hardly ever leaves the flat that, although it does not feel like home, it is the only refuge he has. His body is in Italy but his spirit is still there in Romany, since Andrei has arrived somewhere but not here…

by contributor Fabio Moscatelli

Back when the Italians were the ones emigrating abroad, men used to leave their families behind, only to see them years — if not decades — later. Nowadays, it’s mostly women who bid farewell to their native countries to support their families. They move to Italy and work as housemaids or caregivers, and 75% of them leave their children at home.

It is a wound that cuts deep and sometimes leads to tragic outcomes: as shown by humanitarian associations, about forty Romanian children committed suicide since 2008 because of their mothers’ absence.

This painful experience doesn't only affect the children left behind but also the women forced to abandon their countries to find a job. Such condition has been connected to what the psychologists call “the Italian Syndrome”, which is a severe form of depression increasingly more common among both the immigrants working as caregivers in our country and their children. Andrei is a 10 year-old boy and just a while ago he was living the cheerful life that every child deserves to live. With the occurrence of the economic crisis his father got fired and his mum moved to Italy to find a job. Over the months, the absence of his mother as well as his father’s alcohol abuse had become a tough burden to bear. The presence of his relatives and the strong affection to his motherland cannot fill the emptiness inside him. After a long and painful lawsuit between his parents, Andrei finally catches up with his mother in Italy but what seems to be a happy ending is actually the beginning of a new life where everything looks different and where expectations turn into delusions. Andrei deeply misses his old habits and finds it difficult to integrate into the new society. This generates a strong discomfort that gets even worse because of the arduous relationship between the boy and his mother’s new partner. Andrei shuts himself out, avoids people and isolates himself into a mental and physical cage. He hardly ever leaves the flat that, although it does not feel like home, it is the only refuge he has. His body is in Italy but his spirit is still there in Romany, since Andrei has arrived somewhere but not here…

Faith, a valuable aid in the sad moments Andrei has traveled, a journey of light and shadow Now, with her mom, the climb is not scary For a beautiful smile Andrei has left a small grandson in Romania; often speak of her, so as to show her to me, almost like a ghost in front of my eyes A new friend Distance Empty spaces The joy that was missing for a long time Moments of thoughtlessness almost forgotten  Andrei in his new home in Tivoli,near Rome A thought for Andrei from his new teachers Cold and heat, Andrei lives between these two sensations Night falls, and takes a feeling melancholy Hand outstretched, as if looking for another hand to hold, or as a greeting that he would like to come away The new path will be heavy, but you will not be alone The only friend at the moment is the TV on his new room The green table is ready, waiting for new friends The goodnight kiss, a gesture so simple, so desired, long-awaited The flame of a cigarette as a hope, the hope of this man to be able to be accepted by Andrei The dog looking through the window, even at night, someone seems always waiting for its arrival There are difficult in its life,but he's a kid,and like every kids,he likes play  Like mother and son in an imaginary stairway Searching his home, so far away so close There is an invisible thread, has color of hope, green, that holds him and his memories It opens the door of his new life The loneliness of the game The gestures of a child forced to become a little man; gestures that make me remember how Andrei is still a child